Went to Fortitude Valley for Chinese New Year. Supposed to be Mum, Dad, Grace, Matt, Nick and me.

Big dramas - we said initially we'd leave at five, but mum found in the paper that it all ended at 7, so we left for the train at 4. We being Nick, parents and I. Matt and Grace somehow ended up at Toombul, and met us pretty much there.

Then there was nothing to do.

So we went to the city.

Grace got bored and went home.

Nick, Matt and I stayed.

And caught a movie - Meet the Fockers.

And then went on one of those chocolate skill tester things - we figured out that we put about nine dollars through it, and we got about twenty three chocolates and stuff out of it. Pretty cool.

I think my main goal, when I'm around my friends, is to make Nick laugh. Or smile. Because he doesn't do it much, and he is just very quiet and absorbing and serious. And it feels like I'm missing out on some part of him when he's being quiet or staring off into space and that's bad, because he's a mate, and...I don't know.

Grace complained that I didn't talk, and Nick and Matt generally don't talk as a rule. Sometimes I wonder whether I'm quiet around Grace because she's been gone so long, and I have to adjust to her being around and loud again. Or have to get around the fact that when she's around, she's the leader.

I dunno - everyone follows her, and it's just like whatever she wants to do, everyone follows. And if say Matt wanted to do something, if Grace didn't he'd have to do it alone. And at school when she's not there it's like we're more on even footing - if Ashley feels like walking to the music block, she'll ask us and one might stay, one might go. There's no real leader, or if that's just a position we all take turns being the leader person.

Or maybe I just wanted to get home and watch the IWA: MS Ted Petty Invitational 2004 that I downloaded, I dunno.

Off to watch some tournament I have no idea about.


But first, does anyone recognise this song?

'Touch me, feel me, come take me higher...I've been watching, I'v e been waiting, in the shadows, all (my life)/(this time).' And I think the video clip has something to do with a concert and a mirror.